Call me crazy to wait.

So yes,

I am

you know

feeling that way

kinda

mostly

a lot.

Yes

well yeah

he..

kinda

well

he is

there.

In my mind.

Not all the time

but a lot

too much?

yes and no

too much for me.

But I've never been

you know

one of

"those girls"

Whatever that means.

but one month,

we already have a time limit.

a short one.

what's the point?

if it's so short.

and then four months

which is long.

too long?

Maybe.

could I wait?

maybe.

But I've never been "that" kind of girl

the one that waits.

the kind that wait for a guy.

But there he is

in my mind

he's not on my lips

but I've been in his arms.

does that count?

maybe

for him?

maybe

I hope so

For me?

maybe

....yes

definitely yes

if I let my mind be honest about my heart

So

....

now what?

I have to wait.

but

I've never been one of "those girls".