What happened with the fish bowl was special and I haven't shared it with anyone. The weirdest part about that moment though is that I always thought that moments like that would be with a lover but I'm realising more and more that you'll never be that. And that does not bother me. You have reminded of why I need you. Why I need you as a friend.
For awhile I thought I felt my heart going astray for you, but I think it was just confused with getting closer to you.
Close intimacy doesn't have to mean becoming, it means getting closer with what already have.
I'm going to miss you my beautiful buff boy when those 68 days are done.
Don't forget me.